The Voice Within

It’s 1:30 AM. The voices in my head won’t stop and I feel as though I am going insane. My mind just won’t let up. So many things replay themselves over and over and over again. Everything I need to get done. Everything I should have gotten done. When’s the next big job? How do I compare to other photographers? Am I good enough? Does my work matter? How am I going to find the time to shoot all these portfolio ideas I have floating around in my head. The list goes on and on and on and on. Sleeeeeep. I desperately need to sleep

Why do I torture myself? Why can’t I just close my eyes and drift off into a happy little world? Will it ever stop? I don’t know. Sometimes on the surface I desperately hope so. Deep down though, I know it can’t and that I don’t want it too. Although the voice within is a constant plague, its the driving force that keeps me moving ahead. Its what reminds me that I have passion, fire and the drive to grow. It makes me feel ALIVE.

Friday, August 7th, 2009 Miscellaneous

4 Comments to The Voice Within

Jay Rodriguez
August 7, 2009

You hit it right on the head!
I sure can relate to this issue… patiently waiting and wondering when is the next project going to happen.
No one wants to pay these days, they all expect TFCD!
Thanks for pointing this out Mike!

Stuart
August 7, 2009

By gum (a Yorkshire saying for WOW). I think photographers feel like this all the time. I guess it is mixing with other photographers that do it sometimes. Or maybe the photographers I mix with: Anyway, any time I pick a camera up I feel alive and do not give a monkeys toss (another Yorkshire saying) about what the others think as long as I get positive feedback from those I am photographing

Stuart

Jride
August 7, 2009

Mike – been a while my friend, you and I were probably up at the same time, fighting the good-mind-fight. Your post is on the money! Hope you are well.

Sleep…or not.

Martha Perantoni
August 7, 2009

This is the same torment for all creatives. When your soul work is out there for public scrutiny and criticism, it's enough to drive one insane. Some do go insane, particularly those who can't sleep. :-)

Just remind yourself, as I do, that at 1:30 in the morning there's absolutely nothing you can do about the problem (unless in my world I want to get up and write which I sometimes do). You'll be more alive and more focused for your shoot and probably tick more things off your list than feeling like you need a nap or a triple macchiato.

Just my opinion in the life as I know it.

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